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Daily Life: A Day In My Life

26 Sep

It seems like these days my life is revolving around lists, tasks, chores, and some seriously high goals! If you had told me three years ago this is where I would be today – I probably would have laughed but secretly hoped it was true! Other days I wonder what the heck am I thinking? HAHA!

I spend a majority of my life trying to find that balance between successfulness and freedom. Although I am a huge list maker, there are just those days when I look at my list and say – to heck with you! – and spend a day just doing whatever it is I please! These next few weeks is where I put my freedom aside and really become a servant to that ridiculous list because time isn’t something I really have much of these days.

Yesterday I cut, measured, and pinned ten burp cloths with the goal of today being that I finish those ten burp cloths. It’s times like these where I smack myself in theĀ forehead! Not only is that outrageous but it didn’t happen today. I finished cutting, measuring, ironing, pinning the finishing touches to the burp cloths and got one sewn. I probably could have gotten four more done but between all the errands and spending time with my family it just didn’t happen! So I’m dropping my quota down to 10 a week (the previous goal being 20) and hoping that I end up with enough for the craft fair.

I do have to say though – that while running a million errands this weekend it is amazing that I even got ten burp cloths ready to be sewn! I’m trying to look at it as now that I’ve completely stocked up all my materials, I shouldn’t have to go out for anything until after the craft fair or if I get a custom order.

I bought enough burp cloth material and batting to make a little over 50, I have enough decorative fabric to make 300 so I am definitely going to be using some of that extra fabric on other projects, there are about 40 frames left, and I have enough yarn to keep me busy until this time next year šŸ˜‰ Although I can tell you now I’ll be buying more yarn before that because only having three colors of the same yarn is going to drive me crazy!!

So here I am sitting on the computer with Pandora keeping me in a good mood and crocheting in my lap at 12:15 am completely overwhelmed in a good way and looking back at how I got here and where I want to be in a few years. I will say it wasn’t easy and there are days where I still struggle with balancing my time – I mean really.. who stays up until 1 am just to keep crafting? šŸ˜‰ Me. But I am so proud of my dedication and finally feeling like I’m in control of my life.

It seems like lately I’ve been hearing and reading a lot about mothers who are really having a hard time balancing work, family, free time, and sometimes life in general. It wasn’t too long ago I was in that same hole and I’ll admit that I dug it myself. I let people walk all over me, take me for granted, and made my family miserable because I was miserable. One mother in particular I am feeling a huge overwhelming pain for. She wants nothing but to be home with her children. She’s that mom where the second you meet her you know she was destined to be that amazing mom everyone loved. You never see her stumble and she never shows that she’s unhappy – but inside she is beaten up and just completely torn apart.

Everything inside of me wants to just fix it for her but I know deep down – no matter what I do – it’s not going to help. It’s been taking a toll on me these past few days and even between all the errands and work I can’t seem to shake the thought of how miserable and lonely she’s feeling inside. It wasn’t too long ago I was in her shoes, and it wasn’t too long ago I finally stood up for myself and let go of everything that was holding me back. It’s a scary leap..

So even though I’m super proud of everything I’ve accomplished, happy with the time I got with my family this weekend, and excited aboutĀ achievingĀ these goals – I’m wondering what everyone else is doing? Ā How many people out there are in that limbo of being miserable but feeling like they can’t do anything about it? Why do we let ourselves feel like this on a daily basis without doing a single thing to change it? When are you going to take the leap?

Sorry for the super serious post but I can’t seem to get this off my mind tonight. Maybe I’ll sleep better now that I’ve written it all out šŸ˜‰

Thanks for stopping by!

Love Always,

J

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