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Daily Life: What I’m Grateful For

29 Aug

There are a million things I am grateful for. Sure we all have our days that seem like nothing goes or way but nine times out of ten, I feel lucky to say that I wouldn’t change a thing. It seems like when you meet someone who understands all those crazy thoughts you think no one would get, or laughs at your stupid comments, or better yet – loves you for all the mistakes you make – it’s like nothing else in the world quite matters near as much as that moment.

I’m lucky to say that almost every day I feel like this with my husband. I’ve got a few good friends I can count on when I just need that smile, and then there are people who I hardly know. People I’ve met through blogs, through etsy, through teams, BNRs, Raverly, MeetUp.com, and it’s amazing how important these people are to my life. Some of them I’ve so recently met and gotten to know that you would think I’m crazy for having such a heartfelt feeling towards – but I do. In some small or big way these people have made me feel like I can accomplish all the things that self-doubt likes to destroy. It’s amazing what one person can do to your life.

I know this is a completely random post – but it’s been on my mind all night and it’s exactly what I wanted to say.

I love each and every one of you who have touched my life, given me that moment I never want to take back, and helped me accomplish things I never thought I could.

I love you all.

J

Working Mom: A Painful Day!

25 Apr

Sunday night I sat here dreading working today. I normally don’t dread working because I love kids and my job is playing with them and taking care of them all day, but for some reason I was just really not ready for it. Well my gut instinct was ridiculously correct. P had a completely horrible day today. Somebody is not only teething, but she was so constipated that she was screaming.. constantly. I couldn’t get her to eat anything but I was determined to flush her out with fluids or fruits so I kept trying with the bottle. She finally relaxed long enough for me to get lunch ready for all of us and eat, well kind of.. P wouldn’t eat anything else, and E decided to follow along. Not only did she scream for attention all morning but she refused to eat her lunch as well.

Then nap time … dun dun dunnn. Haha just kidding. Kind of.

P went down with a little fussing but not too much trouble, E on the other hand seemed completely fine one minute then was literally standing, snot running down her nose, tears rolling down her face, wailing. I don’t even know if she was really breathing much at all because it was just a constant flood of snot, tears, and wails. S is here by that time and running in circles around me asking me a million questions dying to jump in a swimming pool that needs to be blown up and filled with water..

E took a bottle and I put her down for a nap, then finally got the pool ready and S was then a happy camper.

It was not long after that then P woke up. Much happier at this point and a little less constipated but that only lasted a little while and she was back to being angry. I don’t know how it happened, but the last hour seemed to fly by. Maybe it was because I gave the girls a snack, juice, and put in Finding Nemo and kept myself busy cleaning the entire place while P was taking another short nap, or maybe it was because I didn’t have the chance to look at the clock until it was 4:30 but HOORAYY! Mommy came and got her girls and I plopped down on the couch in complete exhaustion.

If it wasn’t for my mom keeping me sane and my husband coming home, cooking dinner, helping me clean dinner, making me laugh, changing E, and putting her to bed, I would be a zombie right now!

I really owe my family for everything they do for me.

After that mess of a day, I am going to go curl up in a ball and thank the Lord that I have tomorrow off! Oh and you might not want to expect much accomplishment happening tomorrow because I might still be curled up in a ball all day tomorrow 😉

Love Always,

J

Daily Life: When Mommy is sick, Life gets messy!

13 Apr

Since I have been sick these past few days, it has seriously seemed to have taken over my entire house! Not the sickness exactly but the messiness that comes with sickness .. laziness. It looks like a tornado hit this place and I hate to say it but just unloading and loading the dishwasher wore me out so the rest of the mess is just going to have to wait!

It doesn’t matter where you are standing in this house, all you can see is clutter, which is a huge disappointment seeing as how I already did my spring cleaning and clutter is the last thing I want to see!! I guess most of it isn’t clutter, its child toys ranging from 0-4 years, some crafts I haven’t gotten organized or completed since my sinuses attacked me, and a few other odds and ends. Things like laundry and vacuuming have been pushed aside and are piling up in the closet and  leaving little reminders on the floor. What is a mommy to do when she is sick? Hire a maid, cook, and child care!?? Haha. Right. That’s my job.. whether I’m sick or not. Luckily I managed to marry an amazing guy who does a little here and there to make it not look like a complete disaster, cook for me, and just be okay with the leftover mess that’s not getting picked up.

I would say I’d make up for it this weekend but seeing as how we aren’t going to be here all weekend I have a feeling I am going to have to suck it up and do it tomorrow whether I’m feeling better or not!! This is where I get down on my knees and cry to God! It’s my only day off this week! Please at least make me feel better so I can get my list of things and errands done so my life is not a complete chaos!!! Usually I am begging for down time or craft time.. it’s rare to hear me beg for chores! That just goes to show how messy this place is 😉

Looks like daddy will have to entertain my little miss mess maker while I’m going to go back to curling up on the couch and sniffling my life away until my eyes finally close.

Love Always,

J

Daily Life: An unexpected note

17 Feb

I love Facebook and I am on it almost constantly thanks to my blackberry phone but today I got on and read this application that I downloaded. It’s a daily “note from God“. Not exactly words taken from the bible but things that are uplifting and pertain to living a healthy life. So anyways, it said this:

It’s not about how much you have, how much you know, or how much you do. It’s about how well you love. Love is what matters most.

I think I have been trying SO hard for this family to know how much experience I have, how much I love working with children, all the great ideas and crafts I can plan, and showing them that I can do this. I know that I am good at it, I know that I am knowledgable about it, I know have all the right things to do the job, but the one thing that I have known throughout this entire thing is that I LOVE taking care of children. So when I first read this I thought, well I included how much I love it so that’s good.

Now I am taking a second look at it and I am thinking it’s not about how much I have, know, or do and it’s not about how much I love. It’s about whether they love me or not.

The playdate went well and she is going to bring one of the girls over for a couple of hours to do a trial on Monday. I know that she likes me, I know that she approves of my house, my child, and all the things I have. I am pretty sure she knows how capable I am of doing it. But I also know that she doesn’t want to go back to work, she wants to stay home with her children, she doesn’t want to drop her kids off at someone elses house and feel like she is being a bad mother because she isn’t the one that’s going to be there. I had these feelings when I was working and leaving E home with my parents and B’s parents. I also know how difficult it would be for me to leave E with someone who wasn’t family.. so this decision has really nothing to do with me and my experience and knowledge. It’s about this mom’s feelings. It’s about her trusting herself to make the right decision and not regret not being there to watch her children grow.

Every mom goes through this at some point when their kids go away to school. Some choose to home school because the thought of letting someone else be there and you not is just too much for them.

So I am sitting back trying to relax and not get my hopes up and not assume that it’s not going to happen because it’s not my decision. It’s hers.

I want this job more than anything, but I want her to be happy with me, my family, my home, my knowledge, my stuff, and most importantly my love.

So I am going to stop hoping, wishing, dreaming, worrying, stressing! I am going to enjoy the rest of the weekend and know in the back of my mind that she’ll make the right decision for her.

Love Always,

J

Daily Life: Adding Two More Girls!!

11 Feb

Don’t you just love it when interviews go well!? I had my interview and house tour today for babysitting and she was WONDERFUL! She has the same parenting style as me, and it’s obvious how much she really cares about her children. Unfortunately she doesn’t have the choice she has to go back to work. That’s where I come in! I am about to add two little additions to my schedule! We are having a “playdate” on Tuesday next week to see how the kids react with each other and so we have a little more time to ask each other some more questions and get all set for the start! I’m not 100% sure she has made her decision yet but she made it very clear that she needed to this start soon, she was tired searching for the perfect person, and the fact that we both completely agreed with what each other was saying made it almost set in stone.

This is going to be an amazing thing for B and I. We are so close to having a down payment for a new place and this is just going to speed up the process! Apparently God had the same plans and hopefully his plans lead is right where I hope to be, and if not in the second best place 😉

Now I know what you are thinking, how in the heck is she going to have time to blog and keep me posted with her life if she’s got three little ones to chase after?! Well here’s how, once of the girls is 4 and I will be only having her one to two days a week to start out with so I am planning some serious craft & play time with her while the other two are down for nap time! I will be posting probably every Tuesday or Wednesday night the fun craft/crafts we made and of course I will be updating you on what it’s like to have a household of one baby girl change into a household of three little girls!

I am so unbelievably excited!! My mom and I are going shopping this weekend, mainly because my favorite store (Plato’s Closet) is having a Saturday Grab Bag special. You pay 15 dollars for a bag and whatever you can stuff inside is all yours! WHHHAAATTTT! I am totally getting two bags for me and maybe one for B, he hasn’t really said whether or not he wants one! Then after that sweetness I am going 4 year old craft shopping! Heck Yes!

I plan on buying her a little bucket that clasps shut so the two little ones can’t get into it, putting her name on it, then each week filling it with different crafts & toys to play with! That way she can run inside and have her own stuff and her own little area to play with them in! I am thinking board games, puzzles, coloring books & crayons, watercolors, beads & string, paper, glue sticks, ribbon, colored pencils, yarn, macaroni madness!!!!!! If anyone has any other craft/toy ideas for a 4 year old let me know! I’ll be doing my research online all night 😛

Love Always,

J

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